though i know the title is emo, i promise that the only thing staying true
to what has otherwise been my life going insane,
is that sarcasm rules. my life is fucking ridiculous.
and hopefully i won't lose the ability to make that judgement
about myself and find amusement.
ive been dreaming of joey a lot lately. maybe because its
almost his birthday. its been so long already. he doesnt even remember
meeting me on this day a year prior. (again with the ridiculous).
i was insane and in my insanity harbored an unrealistic
idealistic view about love and dating. theyre are not the same thing.
i didn't even give myself proper time to be alone
after losing my lover, who i was so in love with
and that was the biggest mistake.
i guess no time like the present. months ago i thought this summer
was going to bring me so many different things
but atleast its summer. atleast i have my family
atleast they arent that crazy.
the weather is warming, and i live in seal again.
i have alot of time, i know to get focused.
i've been so unfocused since matt.
not to mention, most men are complete assholes.
fuck. it's fucking ridiculous.
ridiculous.
:)
